The Healing Lodge
I call these feelings the black in me. It's
the dark hole that still has a hold on my soul. For a long, long time,
I felt loveless. I trusted nobody, and to this day, still have a hard time
trusting people. My own family still doesn't know. There is so much shame
involved, because you blame yourself.
I always felt that I "gave up" on myself, and
at times I even believed I got what I "deserved." It has taken me twenty
years to be able to deal with what I went through. The impact it had on
my life really did shape me as a person. Healing takes time...but it will
happen. Talking will help. Just knowing that you are not alone will help.
I know. I've felt alone most of my life, and its not a nice place to be.